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[abstractart]

yeah i have eyes, but i mean

just didn't look at people that way very often before i got here, i guess?

not a lot of experience

[astraphilia]

that's okay, it's not about wxperience. it's about spirit

how comr though? nobody interesting enough or just busy with other shit?

[abstractart]

busy is the best way to put it

it's... complicated

life story type of complicated, i'll spare you all that

[astraphilia]

yeah man I get that/ no pressure it doesn't have ti be storytime. glad you're getting to live a little here

[abstractart]

more than a little, i think

it's pretty nice, just kind of... living. even here. is that fucked up?

[astraphilia]

I don't think it's fucked up
.

or if it's fucked up at least 'were fucked up together

[abstractart]

that's a relief because it feels like half the time i say that people get weird about it

does that happen to you too

[astraphilia]

sometimes, yeah. I dunno how to explain it. this place is fucked but it's akso...

like

[ like, how do you decide what to do with a year that you never thought you were going to have? ]

until now I've been kiving to die and now I'm just living. you know?

[abstractart]

oh believe me i know

it was kinda that way for me.

well

i was supposed to be dead already. never really lived in the first place. for a while, i was ok with dying again after doing what i had to, but

i figured out i *wanted* to live for real, i just might not get to. then i ended up here.

[astraphilia]

yeah... yeah

[ Reno can figure that Netzach probably means it a little more literally than he does, himself; for Reno the prospect of his own death was an inevitability, but not one he's faced down just yet. ]

I hope you get to keep living for as long as you want to

[abstractart]

yeah. you too. all of us.

it feels weird, right? like...

like it's wrong to be okay with this, when so many of us just want to leave and go home

[astraphilia]

yeag I don't know. I think those two things can exist at once ya knos

like. people who wanna go home I want them to go home. be happy live your life

and at the same time for me I don't know if there's a home worth going to

fuckkkk I can't believe I just said that

[abstractart]

yeah, the booze has a way of doing that

and even if you made one here it's never really just about a place

it'd be different if everyone who wanted to go back to their own home was gone

[astraphilia]

yeah... yeah. that's true. the people I'd stay for probably would rather be somewhere else

[abstractart]

same for just about all of mine, i think

[astraphilia]

hey well at least we have each other huh

[abstractart]

solidarity in at least that much, right?

shit i meant to ask you how the host club gig is going

[astraphilia]

you and me baby 🤝

it's good so far, keeps me busy. not that many visitors yet but I guess it'll ramp up eventually

[abstractart]

🤝

it might, yeah. i think once people get more used to it being around they might come hang out... there's not that many of us in the city to start with

guess it means we don't have to be too worried about running out of booze though?

[astraphilia]

fair point I always feel like there's more people thN THERE IS

than there is*

yeah maybe we jsut gotta be careful about the real top-shelf stuff... I don't think booze is gonna totally run out anytime soon

although there's gonnab e a club opening up eventually too so maybe we'll have competition

1/2

[abstractart]

is there...? i didn't hear anything about that

i've been thinking about learning to make my own anyway, just in case

2/2

[abstractart]

texted alhaitham, btw. he's in. wants to up the difficulty

he says he could do it with kaveh sitting on him

[astraphilia]

no shit??? hell ydah I didn't think he'd agree to that lol

I'm in if you're in. I'm going to the club right now if you want me to ask Midnight

also make your own what your own alcohol??

[abstractart]

yeah go for it tell him i said hi

i figure it can't hurt to learn and get started. if we ever end up without it coming back at all, we're gonna be on a time limit depending on how long it takes to be ready... so i'd rather start before we ever have to worry about it.

and if we never have to worry about it, then at least i made some

[astraphilia]

ok I will

you want help?? I've never tried makin liquor before but I'm pretty good in the kitchen so I feel like I could kinda figure it out