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not like i know anything about form, man, i don't work out

but i don't have to let that stop me.

oh no no darling you misugderstand not forms like you gotta pay attention to how good they are st working out forms like "no, do it sexiwr, let me watch"

ohhh that kind of form

...still don't know how qualified i am, but i'll give it my best shot. i can critique the aesthetic at least.

wym you're not qualified all you need is functioning eyes

yeah i have eyes, but i mean

just didn't look at people that way very often before i got here, i guess?

not a lot of experience

that's okay, it's not about wxperience. it's about spirit how comr though? nobody interesting enough or just busy with other shit?

busy is the best way to put it

it's... complicated

life story type of complicated, i'll spare you all that

yeah man I get that/ no pressure it doesn't have ti be storytime. glad you're getting to live a little here

more than a little, i think

it's pretty nice, just kind of... living. even here. is that fucked up?

I don't think it's fucked up . or if it's fucked up at least 'were fucked up together

that's a relief because it feels like half the time i say that people get weird about it

does that happen to you too

sometimes, yeah. I dunno how to explain it. this place is fucked but it's akso... like

[ like, how do you decide what to do with a year that you never thought you were going to have? ]

until now I've been kiving to die and now I'm just living. you know?

oh believe me i know

it was kinda that way for me.

well

i was supposed to be dead already. never really lived in the first place. for a while, i was ok with dying again after doing what i had to, but

i figured out i *wanted* to live for real, i just might not get to. then i ended up here.

yeah... yeah

[ Reno can figure that Netzach probably means it a little more literally than he does, himself; for Reno the prospect of his own death was an inevitability, but not one he's faced down just yet. ]

I hope you get to keep living for as long as you want to

yeah. you too. all of us.

it feels weird, right? like...

like it's wrong to be okay with this, when so many of us just want to leave and go home

yeag I don't know. I think those two things can exist at once ya knos like. people who wanna go home I want them to go home. be happy live your life and at the same time for me I don't know if there's a home worth going to fuckkkk I can't believe I just said that

yeah, the booze has a way of doing that

and even if you made one here it's never really just about a place

it'd be different if everyone who wanted to go back to their own home was gone

yeah... yeah. that's true. the people I'd stay for probably would rather be somewhere else

same for just about all of mine, i think

hey well at least we have each other huh

solidarity in at least that much, right?

shit i meant to ask you how the host club gig is going

you and me baby 🤝 it's good so far, keeps me busy. not that many visitors yet but I guess it'll ramp up eventually

🤝

it might, yeah. i think once people get more used to it being around they might come hang out... there's not that many of us in the city to start with

guess it means we don't have to be too worried about running out of booze though?

fair point I always feel like there's more people thN THERE IS than there is* yeah maybe we jsut gotta be careful about the real top-shelf stuff... I don't think booze is gonna totally run out anytime soon although there's gonnab e a club opening up eventually too so maybe we'll have competition

is there...? i didn't hear anything about that

i've been thinking about learning to make my own anyway, just in case

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